being a last year student in highschool, I have begun to think about where my life is going, I start to think of what is the next step for me, where is my destination. And I’ve come to see that there is a tonne of influence on my choices things like wants, needs and dreams, but also what others wants, needs and dreams are, often I look at myself in third person and I see I am trying to fit to what they want rather than what I do. I look at it a lot as I am going shopping for myself.. I look and I look in every store and I just cant find the right style of clothing.. I can find a perfect looking outfit but it is never in my size. So I continue on this relentless search for myself basically. but what if God doesn’t want me to be a shopper… all along I have been looking at the world as a mall.. where I look for the right “me” to fit my wants, but I think God wants me to be a designer he wants me to make my own cloths. God doesn’t want me to find myself, he wants me to build myself.